Dia meninggal Dunia

Berita yang aku terima bagai satu tamparan hebat dimana orang yang 8tahun aku kenal , kini sudah pergi menghadap Ilahi , Hati ini bagai kehilangan salah seoarang keluarga aku sendiri. 5tahun relationship kami, terputus akibat orang ketiga dan kini seperti tidak percaya aku kehilangannya untuk selama-lamanya.

Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa perit apa yang aku lalui ketika bersamanya. Dia mengajar aku erti cinta, ketawa dan kini air mata. Orang cakap jangan terlalu bersedih jika kehilangan seseorang kerana mungkin Allah akan memberikan kita pasangan yang lebih baik , tapi perasaan memang tidak dapat di tahan.

Pada hari aku diberitahu dia berada dalam keadaan koma , pada hari itu lah aku sangat merindui dia , Banyak fitnah yang aku dapat dari kawan2 ketika kehilangannya dan ramai kawan2 yang masih menyokong. Ketahuilah kawan2 hati aku amat terluka :/

Every other day I sit and wait for the same bad news. Can you hear me saying, "I've got nothing left to lose." Can someone please start making sense? And beg the lord for accidents. I've seen the worst case scenario, I'm slowly letting go. Rescue me from everything, I just wanna live, I wish I could breathe.

“The irony of my life, if not its tragedy, is that I did not understand this until it was too late; only then, as I retraced in memory the vertiginous arc of our affair, and the desperate, terrible brutality of its ending, did I properly come to know what it signified. The tragedy of my life then; the failure to understand the nature of love, until it was too late.”

There’s nothing left here for me but empty promises and the thought of all the things I’m never getting back. You just leave me here alone .

Sem Break !

Cuti sem ni tak tau lah ak buat apa , bosan kat rumah tapi kalau kerja tak boleh berat2 , nanti mula lah doktor marah. Duk rumah putihkan kulit je la , sambil tu jaga farhan ni , aduyai kuat btul dia menangis :D

There was my bestfriend story's.

Couple of year she has been with a very handsome boy but one day, while she was on her way to school, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw me beside her bed. Seeing im crying, she wanted to comfort me. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Unfortunately, her boyfriend leave and insulting at her because of the weakness. She's begging for nothing, She learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must give back what the boy did to her. A year has passed & the boy comes with his face injury badly & begging for a good surgery. After the treatment , the doctor said " what goes around comes around, See you begging me as my Wife did to you before right? I cant help you . Sorry, you're handicap now :)
The doctor was my bestfriend husband's :)

My haters are my motivation :P

I would love to thank all of my haters, all of the people out there who made me who I am. All of the people who pointed out my flaws and made me realize that I could do better. All of the people who made fun of my looks, my clothes, my personality, my thoughts, my opinions, and my personal views. You only make me take better care of myself, make me more of me than I was before you pointed out what you saw as what was so wrong.

Thank you to you all because all you've done was made me stronger. All of you who made me fight for what's right, all of you who made me stand up for myself, all of you who pushed me (both mentally and physically), all of you who made me defend myself, all of you who tortured me in my soul.

All of you who turned that tortured soul into a soul that looks forward to the brightness of a new day, a soul that finds only the best in everything and everyone, a soul that forgives you, a soul that loves you for all that you wanted from someone else, a soul that is willing to embrace you, a soul that understands your pain and is willing to get to know you better.

I wish no harm to you, to your family, to your friends, to those you care about. I will never hate you because you don't deserve it. You don't deserve to feel what I felt as I went home day in and day out. You don't deserve to go around and picking at other people out of spite. You deserve better - you should ask for something better from yourself and those around you.

I don't wish to beat you up for no reason, throw rocks at your back for standing up for who you are; I don't wish to harm you or your loved ones like you've done mine. You don't deserve so much negative energy coming your way to where you can't succeed or be who you really are or who you wish to be. You deserve to be supported, encouraged, and empowered for all that you do right. You deserve more positive things to come their way and see themselves in a more positive light than you have in your past; it's time to grow up and stand for a more sophisticated cause which can benefit us all in the long run.

6 PerKarA yAnG pErlu DicaPai Sebelum Umur 26Tahun :)

1. Nak betul-betul khatam Al-Quran.

2. Nak ada kerja yang tetap dan menjamin masa depan, tak perlu nak bgantung dengan orang lain lagi.

3. Ada husband yg boleh memimpin.

4. Sediakan deposit nak hantar Mak pergi tunaikan Haji.

5. Belajar memasak sampai betul-betul pandai masak semua jenis masakan kampung.

6. Nak buat orang yg betul-betul sayang aku , Bahagia :)

Kawan ke awek paling penting ??

17/sept-2001
Hari ni aku keluar dgn yan , kawan baik aku..dah tujuh tahun aku kawan dia tapi awek dia yg dia baru sgt kenal , tak bagi aku kawan gn dia...dia jeles kot...aku ingat nak bincang lah dgn dia elok2 tapi awek dia siap kutuk aku bagai padahal aku nk je kawan gn awek dia..aku pun takde la hard feeling kat yan tu . Niat ikhlas la nk kawan tp tengok gaya yan macam pilih awek bbanding kawan sendiri. Takpe la aku ikot je kehendak dia..Sekarang kteorg dah semakin renggang,Kalau dia nak putus kawan pun takpe la..awek kan segalanya bagi dia..aku nangis pun takan dapat merubah hati dan pemikiran dia pun..